My Story/About Me
Most everyone who meets me will say I’m just your run of the mill gay: I’m Fabulous with a Tiara. But in actuality…I’m not anything special. I survive by keeping myself as far away from drama as possible, oh and Pixie Dust. I’m Mitch, and this is who I am.
When I was 5 I begged my parents to let me continue in Ballet. But they decided that sports was where their son needed to be. When I was 7, I told my pastor I thought his son was gorgeous. When I was 11, I was raped.
I’ve never admitted that in public before.
2001…I moved away from my home state, and started to attend Public School.
2004… Was accepted on Full Scholarship to a local Private School.
2005: Well that was the year that started a downward spiral. I have never been attractive, at least not in my eyes. So I started to shut down, I had a case of depression, that to many of my teachers was considered an improvement. Unlike normal cases, instead of my grades dropping and being listless, I overcompensated to hide my depression…and worked harder, and brought my grades up. I yo-yo-ed my emotions. I’d smile all day, I’d laugh, and make jokes. But as soon as I was alone…I just crumpled. The summer of 2005, I made plans to kill myself. I had no desire to live, nor did I want to burden anyone else. So I put on a backpack filled with rocks, and jumped off of a bridge.
Granted I obviously survived…but that desire to remove myself from Earth, and from everyone’s memories had grabbed hold of my soul. Over the course of the next 3 years I attempted suicide 18 times. I never succeeded. Each and every failure proved to me, that was all I was going to be. A fat, moronic, asinine,failure.
I held that opinion until about 5 months ago. I woke up everyday and looked in the mirror, and was disgusted by what I saw looking back. I treated myself like a horrid mistake. I couldn’t fathom why God had created me. I participated in daily activities, and I was involved heavily…but it was an act. An ingenious act, if I do say so myself.
So who am I?
I’m Mitch, a gentleman who rambles. Mostly about Disney, but also many-times about serious things. I love to sing, and being onstage in a professional theatre would be a dream come true. I love to listen, and give advice. I love to laugh. I’m gay, and I can be quite the princess when I want to be. I’ve decided to stop lettting everyone tell me who they want me to be and start being me.